今天很不开心。谨此。

Rooted

Imo, its really difficult to step out of the comfort zone. There's a lot that I do not understand about myself, and I am just bad in devoting all of my time into something, I find myself constantly checking my phone whenever I'm awake. or maybe I just havent found that one thing that lits up all of my fire. I'm becoming abit of a worry wart, more awkward compared to before, frequently nervous. Sacrifices, decisions all have to be made. But I wonder where I am standing. I'm ok. if thats what you're wondering. I'm just thinking, about questions that I'm unable to answer.

插曲

其实我就真的只有想标题厉害. 今天真是咳死了。 过后的我会是怎么样想的.我都知道。 anyways,插曲感觉也不太对， 这交流难啊，多想不看人家脸色。 我想说我想多了，可是我没自信， 是一个多么脆弱的东西，而我又凭什么

Scrambled eggs

How i feel just now, how i feel now, probably how I would feel later. I realized that I have a really bad mood swing problem. I'm usually happy-neutral, but when I'm not, my systems shut down and Im thrown into a full blown panic. I literally fail to see things calmly. And this is happening more and more often ever since I came back. I wanna rewind time, and step back into a place where not many people know me, a more care-free setting, somewhere Im perfectly at ease being me. Patches fall apart and as usual, I pick them up but they are not pasted back correctly. Dont worry tho, this only applies to my own problem. others are a perfectly subjective matter. So God help me, pull me through, remind me of my priorities. Give me space.